The past 2 days I have felt off kilter, a little edgy, nervous perhaps of something, not sure what that something is or WAS.
But if left me feeling flat, was I lacking excitement? Perhaps, but I wasn’t in the mood for Excitement either.
Did I really want to work at the business I am setting up? Too much effort, too hard … I am tired, it would be easier to just sit all day, read a book, go for a walk, sounds nice.
In reality NOT ME! I would be bored in a couple of days.
Imposter syndrome, not worthy, not good enough perhaps was the underlying cause if I looked deep enough into my heart space instead of between my ears in my head space.
I listened to a recording of a group I am in tonight and someone else was experiencing this feeling of ‘not being worthy’ and I wanted to shout out to her that she is worthy, that I see her amongst her confusion and pain, I wanted to give her a great big hug.
My realisation was to turn this on myself and reflect around my feelings of not being worthy.
I ran my first ever zoom group today, some lovely people wanted to know about what I did during my cancer healing journey with my DIET when I discovered it, what I did after that and what I do now in my remission phase.
I admit, I was nervous, what if it was boring? What if I couldn’t remember what to say or know what to say. What if I couldn’t work the technology what if I FAILED?
As the time approached, I had my ‘Props’ around me and some notes I had put together and the Zoom session began. As soon as I let people into the ‘room’ I suddenly felt at ease at the lovely smiley faces that had joined me. We talked for 2 hours and have another one booked for a month’s time.
I realised that I was worthy, that I have something to contribute to the world and if I dig deep that’s where the magic happens and we find out things about ourselves that we didn’t previously know.
So, if YOU are feeling like I was today, dig deep and know that others will see you as worthy and want to hear YOUR story TOO.
Expansion DOES NOT HAPPEN IN THE COMFORT ZONE
